Mindy and Max's True Life

about coping with ADHD, single motherhood and unconditional love for your child.

So, this is what happened. January 18, 2010

Filed under: Love,Mad Max Stories,Mad Mindy Stories — Mindy Hester @ 5:15 pm
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Thing is, I really don’t need to tell you how Max was. I mean, he had a terrific time and it definitely wasn’t free of  incident. We can’t perform miracles overnight. The one who I should write about is me.

You see, I walked into the situation already mentally destroying any chance it  becoming a positive one. I had worked through every possible scenario, role-played every feasible shenanigans and before the car was even packed I had delivered a verdict of CHAOS. The trip was doomed from the start.

And I did my best to keep that going. I did it all. I fretted and worried about every move the kid was making, and I was making it a horrible trip for the both of us.

Kurt Cobain once said (Yeah, I AM quoting Kurt Cobain) that “Waiting to be someone else is a waste of the person you really are.” The reason that I am having anxiety & panic attacks taking my son into public places is MY fault, not his. I realized this weekend (with help from a dear friend and observer) that I am the one who needs to change. It doesn’t have to be this hard. I am making this so hard and it is just breaking my heart. So I am making a pact with my spirit. To change. Because the experiences I go through with this amazing boy are only as disastrous as I make them.

Hope you all had a great weekend.

Mindy

Yes….it’s another quote below. Just get used to it, I like quotes

“Follow your bliss and don’t be afraid, and doors will open where you didn’t know they were going to be.”

-Joseph Campbell

From now on, I will practice to be always more "Jerry-Like".

 

On Our Way On The Overstimulation Super Highway! Whose more anxious, Max or Me? January 16, 2010

We’ve got a free day from school this weekend so we are taking to the road (well, actually just about 25 minutes up the road) to the colorful, crowded and semi-annoying Key Lime Cove Water Park in Gurnee. We’ve given this one a try before about a year ago. My parents took Max and me for the weekend, a much needed weekend. Before the car was packed the anxiety had already begun. Not Max……Me. The questions were streaming through my mind: “How will he act? Will he do that screaming thing? Will he stay at my side or run away and get lost in the crowd? Will he do that thing were he runs into the walls and hit’s himself in the face? “. This happens every time we go somewhere. I feel anxious, nervous and my palms sweat.  Especially to someones  home. We often have play dates and dinners over at our dear friends and neighbors house and I feel my shoulders start to rise and stay hunched up near my ears as we walk to their house. The entire time we are there I am on edge, watching his every his every move, using the phrase “No, Max” over and over it becomes so redundant. This phenomenal friend of mine also is raising a child with sensory needs and always seems so cool, she’s always telling me not to worry even though last year Max knocked down and broke part of a treasured collection of hers she didn’t even break a sweat. She’s a wonder and I don’t know how she does it. Maybe she will grace us with some words of wisdom.

So we are off. Car is packed, Books, DVD’s, Lego’s are packed. Squeezing toys, tug of war rope, tight feety pajama’s and heavy blankets are in the car, ready to help when we need a sensory break. BTW: Sometimes Max takes sensory breaks by doing wall push ups and jumping jacks when he gets too “Mr. Jumpy” (our code word for the ADHD), and it’s been working well. Wish us lock. Have a great weekend everyone!

One more thing:  I just got a note on Facebook from a friend which says the following, please pass it on and never forget it:

Sometimes you just need to hear it… You are a phenomenal woman, a beautiful mother, doing an extraordinary job, making things happen for those you love, and although you might not always think about it, you are loved and appreciated!

Love,

Mindy & Max

 

Welcome To Mindy & Max’s Life Blog January 14, 2010

My son Max, 5 years old.

Hello Everyone! Thanks for coming. Now, let me tell you a little bit about myself and why I wanted to start this blog:

My name is Mindy Hester. I am a 40-year-old single mother from Chicago. I have a beautiful and amazing 5-year-old son named Max who struggles with ADHD as well as some speech issues. Let’s just be frank about this…there is no Father in the picture. And I am Mommy & Daddy, I have been since the day he was born. Oh, my ex-husband has called a few times…but that’s a whole different show. I am a professional kid’s musician and have my band, Mindy Hester & The Time Out’s, and love what I do..performing and teaching music.

So, why the blog? Well, I live in the kind of town where a single mom still gets whispered behind her back. And most of my friends are married and have plenty of support at home. I am flying high here and I just wanted a place for women/men like me to be able to go to and help each other with this “Hardest Job In The World”. We may not have a support system sleeping next to us at night (well, my 5-year-old sometimes) but I thought that maybe we all have something to teach each other. So tell me your story, deal?

 

 
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